Surgery

I'm getting surgery tomorrow afternoon. I'm terrified. Everyone is telling me I'll be okay, but I'm still scared. My sister is more worried I won't be able to be in her wedding than if I'll be okay. I told her today I was getting it done tomorrow (instead of the originally planned week from now) and she asked "Why so soon?" "I just want to get it done with so I'm better" "Oh for the wedding." "....No, for myself. So I won't be in pain anymore." "Oh right"

So apparently my sister is more concerned with her wedding going correctly than she is with my welfare. Whatever.

I can't stop thinking about tomorrow. I'm afraid of the needles and knives to come.